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Author: Sonora Reyes

Narrators: André Santana and Alejandro Antonio Ruiz

Kenny and Han have been best friends since they were six. They’re roommates and each other’s person.

Han has never been in love. He’s had several girlfriends, enjoys an occasional hookup, but he never felt “the earth move”. He’s been hurt. He was sent home to live with his tíos in the US and that has left him with fear of getting attached to anyone (well, except for Kenny). When you add that he’s neurodivergent, you understand he has a hard time “reading the world”.

Kenny is the loving, people pleaser who’s in a relationship with the girlfriend from hell (she  keeps denying his bisexuality, gaslights and abuses him). She would also want nothing more than have Han disappear of their lives. 

When Han loses the job that has been sponsoring his visa, he is terrified that he’s going to sent  back to a country he barely knows. That’s when Kenny steps in and proposes. Everyone already thinks they have “a thing”, so they can pull it off and keep the friendship. Well, life if more complicated than that…

This was lovely! A new author to me plus two amazing narrators! The audiobook is narrated dual style by André Santana and Alejandro Antonio Ruiz and I feel in love with their voices! André gives us the perfect people pleaser, loving and caring Kenny. His soft and mellow voice conveys all the conflicted feelings Kenny is dealing with. Alejandro does a great job portraying Han with a slight accent and with the perfect inflection to show Han’s autism and his occasional befuddlement with the things happening around him. Han is a pretty vulnerable character – not only terrified of an imminent deportation but also coming to terms with his own feelings and sexuality. Lovely and touching performances!

It’s a sweet book (with a dash of spice) that deals with some heavy topics. I am glad I was introduced to a new author and two new amazing narrators!

Thanks, Hachette Audio for the audiobook! 

Representation: Latine MCs, queer rep, neurodivergent MC

Content notes: ICE, police racial profiling; immigration issues; physical and emotional abuse; toxic relationship with a partner; queer phobia; addiction related to death